Treading water

I feel like I'm treading water. Not really going forward, not really falling back. I've been trying to lose weight for over a year, but yet I've not reached my goal. I can't explain it. All of the tools are here, yet I'm still not where I want to be. I wish I could really kick it in gear. I think part of me is still having a pity party for myself on some levels lately. A lot is still my diet with all it's allergy restrictions. I struggle to keep control of my food. It's tough when you are so restricted to restrict it even more when it comes to calories and fat. That's all that's in most gluten-free foods. I still hate hate HATE fruit, but trying so hard to eat it. I'm working on more veggies.

This brings me to my next tread - dancing. I have a great studio here at home that is not seeing much use. I guess I'm discouraged. There's just no fire there right now. I want to be able to perform, but there just isn't many chances lately. I shouldn't care. I really shouldn't. I LOVE dancing, I really do. The thing is I'm starting to get goal driven. Not with just dance, but everything in life. it's almost getting to not doing things for the sake of it, but it has to produce results to be worthwhile. So because the weight loss isn't happening as quickly as I would like, it seems to not be worth doing because there's no overt results. I know that's not true, and I'm not sure how to change this attitude. I guess I need to really strive to be more positive. Do things for the fun and the love of it and not stress about the results.